Tuesday, January 27, 2009

What I Learned This Week

Jo-Lynne at Musings of a Housewife is starting a new carnival this week about what you learned over the week. I really hadn't planned on doing this. Because, well that takes a lot of thought and internal searching and I have been trying to do as little as possible of that lately.

However, I am also rather desperate for things to blog about so the need to blog overrides laziness!

So what have I learned this week?

I have learned, through Facebook, that it is incredibly hard to come up with 25 random facts about myself and that I am essentially a very boring person!

I have learned that I LOVE the fact that our school superintendent is from Florida and will cancel school at the mere mention of snow, ice, or even really cold temps. As a result, we are sitting home today (no tutorial) in perfectly fine weather, enjoying a free day and celebrating Tigerfan's birthday!

On a more serious note, I am learning about significance. It is something I have struggled with most of my adult life. Strangely, I was fine with anonymity when I was young. And I actually don't want a lot of attention now. I just want to feel like I have meaning. Like I have accomplished something great! And if I am honest, I want others to notice how great I am (for what, I am not sure). It is why I get down when only 5 people have read my blog in one day or when I think I write something really funny and no one comments. It is why I am scared to say anything in Bible study because if I think it is profound and someone disagrees, I would be mortified. It is why it is so hard for me to embrace the love and acceptance I am freely offered in Christ because I haven't done anything to earn it...so how can He even really notice me. I am struggling to learn, right now, that it is nothing I have done or will ever do that makes God love me. There is no accomplish good enough to earn His acceptance and no mistake bad enough to exclude me. I don't understand how He can create a huge universe and still know my name. But I know He does. I don't understand how I can do so little and be loved so much, but I know I am. So, I am significant. Not because of astounding beauty or great accomplishments or even my stellar wit and writing ability. I am significant because I am His. And that is enough!


Happy Mommy said...

You are not boring! I love your blog and reading you on facebook! I enjoyed your 25 facts! Have a great day!

Aimee said...

And this post right here?

It's significant, my friend. :)

CJ, the Purple Diva said...

Thank you so much for playing along in the fun!
I loved reading this.
You are so loved by our Heavenly Father and His son Jesus Christ. It is amazing to think that you are known by your name-even every hair on your head. Our mortal minds cannot comprehend that. But I must tell you that you are a very significant person. You are a mother and have chosen to bring his children to this earth to nuture and teach them correct principles. That is the greatest thing you can do while here. You and I are loved more than we know.
And I sure as heck love ya! ♥

Growin' with it! said...

yep...we could be twins!☺

Musings of a Housewife said...

You are absolutely right about that! And yes, it's SUCH a hard lesson to learn. And every time I think I've got it, I realize I don't.

I'm so glad you participated! :-)

P.S.He loves you.. said...

What a neat carnival TY for the recommendation!

Hardly boring..just very busy!

Windy said...

I was tagged on FB for the 25 random things, and it took me forever, about 2 entire 1 hour shows to complete it!

sarah said...

Amen!! You are wonderful just as you are, as God made you in His eyes.

I saw that notice about 25 things in Facebook going around. There are so many requests of all kinds that I've been ignoring all of them but I do like reading what others write for that.

Take care,

tidymom said...

Well! that was a pretty significant post!!! you are certainly not boring!! - when I feel "boring" like I have nothing to blog about - I look around at all of the wonderful bloggy carnivals around - like this one - they usually inspire a post and pull me out of my rut!!

Glad I found your blog!!


Anonymous said...

boring????? pff!

amen, sister! you are soooooo significant!!!

Melissa said...

I think you did great job on your post. This is my first time to your blog. It is so true to remember that we are Children of God. I never did the 25 facts thing. I couldn't think of that many things.

Eli's Lids said...

Amen sister!! I could have written that last paragraph. If someone doesn't comment on one of my "good" blogs I get in a funk. I'm doing a wedding linky right now and I was so concerned that no one would be in it... lame. I had to re evaluate where my value comes from... my blog? my kids? my husband? NO!! I'm a daughter of THE KING.