Friday, September 17, 2010

Coffee Talk 9.17.10

Good Morning! I've got my bottle of water and am ready to visit! It has been a week of mild weather, a grumpy momma, and little accomplishments around here. I look forward to seeing how the week has been for the Company Girls.

Okay...I'm sorry, I am going to revisit a subject I said I would stop talking about, but~I DID IT!!! This morning, I ran about 2 1/2 miles without stopping. Yahoo! I know, for you real runners out there, that is child's play but believe me, for this non runner, that is HUGE! I don't know the exact distance, I just know I ran for 25 minutes and the website says that is about 2 1/2 miles.

I knew when I got up this morning that today was the day. And to be honest, I was dreading it! In fact, Wednesday was actually the day, but I had been fighting a cold for a few days and when I got up Wednesday, my sinuses were congested and my head was ready to explode and after about 30 minutes of trying to talk myself into going...I realized I just couldn't do it. Afterwards, I was really mad at myself because that is the first training day I have missed since I started this program. I think I decided that I would have to just start over from the beginning because I missed that day. Anyway, this morning I did it. It was tough. There were moments that were great and I was feeling really confident...and then I would have to run up a hill, so much for confidence. So here is my spiritual connection today...because you knew there had to be one. Toward the end of the run, it was getting tough...the road was inclining and I was getting tired and my Ipod died so I was just listening to my brain telling me I was surely going to die! I had been praying for my husband who is in a tough job situation. It isn't that he hates his job, it is just SUPER stressful and he is held accountable to do far more than one person can possibly do in a month. He works ridiculous hours and is constantly told to do more, get it done, take it home, etc. He would love to do some kind of ministry, but also feels the burden of supporting our family. He is frustrated and tired. He is running out of breath and the road is going uphill! We have been praying about it for awhile now. And to be honest, there are days my faith wavers. It is hard to understand why, when your heart desires to do ministry...you are tied to a job that leaves you dissatisfied, frustrated and with very little time.

I thought of some other friends of ours that are in a very similar situation. He hates his job and they have been praying for YEARS for other opportunities. He is still in the job he hates. I admit, I don't understand. Perhaps both he and my husband are making more of an impact where they are than we think. Sometimes, it is hard to remember that we are not really on this earth for our own pleasure...but for the pleasure of God...someday, we will be with Him in paradise, but for now we are in a fallen world that brings trouble and frustration. Anyway~ that is what I was thinking about as I was trying not to die! And I realized that I was making it just one step at a time. In that moment, I was just leaning on God to take me that one next step...if I had looked to the finish, I probably wouldn't have made it...it would have seemed too hard. And so, I just asked Him for the next step...one at a time. Before long, I caught that second wind and was able to finish...maybe not strong, but at least without passing out! :)

This week has been a little rough. School has not gone well and I will probably not be receiving mother or teacher of the year. By Wednesday, I was ready to pull hair out. The thought of continuing like we have been for the rest of the year is unimaginable. I am tired. I don't really want to keep going. And yet...I know that my Father in Heaven, my Sustainer, my Redeemer will help me take that next step. I cannot look to next week or next month or next year. I just have to trust Him right now, this minute, this step. He WILL be faithful. He will pull us through. He will give us hope because He is hope and at the finish line...we will be there, in His presence...so glad that we ran! He is worth it!

I hope and pray that all of my Company Girl friends know Him today. My prayer is that you know the name of Jesus and can call upon Him when your strength is gone. He is the way, the Truth and the Life, the Hope of our Salvation, the Good Shepherd, my Friend! I cannot imagine life without that truth! He is calling out to you today. He wants to help you with each step...will you let Him? Do you know Him?

Hoping you do today, and if you do not...please let me share Him with you today!

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11 comments:

Dory said...

Yes, he is there. Thank you for posting your thoughts:)

Diane said...

I so often strain ahead to see more of where the path is going - when God wants me to focus on the single step in front of me, and He will take care of the rest. He promises us grace and mercy sufficient for the day - why would we have to worry about anything more? He's got the rest under control.

Thank you for your prayers, dear sister, and back at you!

bashtree said...

I'm so sorry school has been such a struggle for you and your family. You're right, though - change has to be made. I'm sure you and your family will learn the right changes. Maybe you'll even be able to look back on this short season and laugh, having come through it better than you can imagine right now!

Lea said...

Again, you are such a gifted writer! Goodness, my heart aches for you and your family and I'm just sure God has a perfect plan in store, it's just so hard to wait sometimes. I pray you and Hubby will have a real peace during this time. And, I cannot even imagine home schooling. I have such admiration for you Moms that go that route but it cannot be easy.

Abundant blessings to you and yours in the days ahead. HE is the way the truth and the light!

Cindy Swanson said...

This is my first visit to your blog, and I'm loving it! I'm proud of you for running. I need to be exercising just about every day, and I've been pretty lazy lately. You've inspired me!

joyceandnorm said...

Sorry to hear that some things are not going well. I sometimes look too far ahead and miss what's right in front of me. It can be overwhelming at times, but I think we can just live it out one day at a time and be grateful for what the Lord has blessed us with...even though it may not seem like a blessing at times. Praying that He will get you through this time.

Great job on your run though!! I'm still not with the program on that.

Jen said...

I've had to really keep after my oldest (6) these days. She really seems to struggle with impulsive behavior at home once she has been at school all day. There have been times when I have braced myself for her arrival home. Anyway, I've just had to pray through it, as you have done, and wait for God to soften my heart and calm hers.

Jhona O. said...

I think 2.5 miles is FABULOUS! Way to go. I am working on running for three minutes without stopping. Seriously. I am taking it a minute at a time:) Way to go!

Pencils, books and crayons...OH MY! We have had quite the week ourselves. This was only our second week and there were some bad habits that needed to be nipped in the bud. While I'm praying for myself this coming week I'm going to be praying for you too. Many blessings to you and yours:)

Kim said...

Great job on the running! There is always a spiritual aspect to running. Many times I just feel like falling over dead but the Lord always sustains me.
You can get your exact mileage on mapmyrun.com
It is a free service that you can tract your distance.
Again, great job!

secondofwett said...

Ah, what a wonderful post..first of all..2.5 miles..how awesome is that.....I really couldn't run 20 feet...I know ..pathetic! Anyways..what an excellent reminder during your running to just take one step at a time....I love how you presented the gospel to everyone...thank you for thinking of all of us. I hope your school week goes better......homeschooling is such hard work for a mama....very draining....good thing the Lord doesn't expect us to do it all on our home...that's impossible!

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